Ok. So I feel like my problems are teeny tiney, because this particular issue is not huge. But I am going to ask for advice anyway, since everyone here is so supportive.

I had sustained a brain injury this past January 2011 which has prevented me from going into the field of work which I wanted to do.

I am however, cleared to start training again in January, in martial arts. I am so scared though. (since I got injured during a defensive tactics exercise for the profession I was going to go into)

I love training, it is my lifeblood. I miss it terribly. But the thought of stepping on the mat, the thought of allowing someone to touch me, and put that trust in a training partner when I was so horribly betrayed by my last 'partner' who hurt me, really scares the crap out of me. (not to mention, we roll a lot which involves my head going near the ground repeatedly)

I know I could just not go back to training for fun. I could avoid it completely and avoid this issue. But I really miss it! Part of me doesn't think I can do it, because I failed to protect myself, so what makes me think I am deserving of my rank and title in my particular art?

I know this isn't a huge deal, but it really is to me. ANY thoughts would be appreciated.

thank you....