That sounds really rough. I know what you mean about it being really hard to pick a p-doc. I live in a huge city and there are a million to choose from. In the office I go to, there are about 20 doctors. I notice some only spend like 5 or 10 minutes with each person. They rush them in and out. And I know how crummy the side effects of some of these drugs can make us feel. Don't worry about complaining. We've all gone through this and it is difficult. This is the right place to vent.

I actually chose to see a Nurse Practitioner instead of a doctor. I got so lucky. She is so patient and explains everything. If I have questions she answers them and I feel like she listens. She doesn't rush me the way I've seen the other patients in the practice get rushed. My mom is a nurse practitioner and she has a tendency to do a little more patient education than my sister (who is a doctor), which is why I chose a nurse practitioner. I think NP's just have a different approach to working with patients than doctors do. NP's work under doctors and are typically very knowledgeable and it's generally been my experience that they can be a bit on the more compassionate side. I'm not sure if you would be comfortable seeing an NP instead of a doctor, but that may be something to consider. I just looked on the list of my insurance providers that were covered and found an NP and then I did a bit of research to try to find one that had a good reputation and had been in practice for a good long while.

But even if you don't want to see an NP, I do hope if this p-doc doesn't feel like a good fit that you will look for a new one. It's hard enough to deal with feeling bad. We don't need the added trouble of trying to work with one that we can't respect or laughs at us. {{hugs}} to you.