thanks hillbunny
your message made me smile.
people keep telling me i need to stop thinking and analysing and just get on with things. even though i try to do that and ive managed it a bit i just dont understand how to live without thinking examining everything. when i dont it feels... dangerous i guess. i start to panic cos i dont know whats going on. but then when i do think about things and still cant figure them out or come to a conclusion it freaks me even more. like with all of this. and im really really bad at talking to people about things that i dont already understand at least a bit. theres this whole area of my life that i just dont get. its scary but i can hardly even think about it, nevermind talk about it with anyone and i think if i could look at it it would explain a lot but its just terrifying. i cant go there.
thanks for putting a smile on my face for a minute there.