Right, so my family has seen the scars on my upper arm. Good thing they were nearly healed. My brother and sister haven't said anything, but Mum asked questions, and didn't believe my answers. Dad just asked if I was cutting.

Now, I'm terrified. I don't want them to deal with this. Both sets of grandparents have passed away recently, so my parents really shouldn't have to put up with my problems.

The other thing that's happened is that one of my friends has told me she's suicidal. She's been into hospital and is on medication. Since she lives about 18 000 km away, I've got no real opportunity to talk to her face to face.

So, rather ironically, I now feel I have a reason to cut. Now, I feel like ****. So I've moved where I cut because Mum keeps checking my arms.