((anxietychick59)) i am so sorry for your loss. a year ago i lost my grandma, the only person i could always come to for comfort and the only person who loved me, so i know your pain. I absolutely agree with rapsody. I personally didn't want to talk about her death at all at first, know it seems like i don't ever want to stop talking about her. But everyone is different and therefore reacts differently to a loss like this one.
You are in my thoughts. Take care of yourself