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Please don't be offended by what I say, okay? I thought it before but since you posted this I'll mention it.

I don't believe you wanted to die that day by the river. You dropped off that note, and I believe you wanted someone to come and help you. You were trying to get someone to pay attention to the fact that you need help and are suffering all the time.

You're right - you could have done any number of things to actually commit suicide - but you didn't. You don't want to die - you just want relief from the h*ll that you live with on a daily basis.

I hope someone in 3D understands and helps you get some relief. It seems like your 2 friends really care and I'm glad you have them.

Don't be disgusted with yourself - you're a fighter, a survivor. I admire your courage and fortitude.

If I offended you, you have my apologies.

Mary Alice