hi lgreen and welcome. i'm glad you've come.

it sounds like you might be dealing with some depression over the major life changes. Also, it sounds like this might've been going on for an extended period of time which wears on our emotional resources.

have you thought about seeing a therapist to "talk through" the grief you might be feeling? i know i married and divorced young, and even though it was my decision, I grieved heavily as it was a loss of hopes and dreams even though i knew it best.

we're here.

KD