wow chopin. this is kinda nuts for therapy. i read your posts now and then, and while i'm the same faith as you, i do think you could find someone who is a better fit for you from what i read. you seem emotionally sensitive and your T is very direct and blunt. among other things her telling you her clients don't affect her and then the big "i love you" and hug at the end are quite the cognitive dissonance and frankly a bit crazymaking. i guess she means clients don't affect her negatively but yeah that is b.s. because you can't have just positive emotions or reactions without the negative ones too.

if you don't mind my asking i'm curious as to her training. is she an actual psychotherapist or a pastor or is she a counselor? as i'm sure you know the training does make a big difference in their approach (not to mention whether they are cbt, psychodynamic, etc.) and this doesn't sound like actual psychotherapy to me. it sounds like she has helped you previously with some issues but maybe you would be better off now with a regular psychotherapist like an MFT or psychologist or at least one who isn't quite so church ladyish. it sounds like you've done dbt, maybe another T with that training?

take care of yourself. please consider your options and don't stay in a T situation unless you really think it is continuing to help you.