I just know that tonight when my son gets home from school he will be in a bad mood. He is going to come in here and demand that I give him what he wants and if I stand up to him and say NO YOU HAVE TO EARN THE RIGHT TO HAVE THAT, he will yell at me and call me a F'ING *****. I don't know what to do. All I ever do is cry. I have a son that hates me. I just want him to love me. I guess I will never have that. He like to see me cry. He makes a point in making me cry at least once a day. The more mad and upset I get the more he comes at me. If I try and walk away to my room he just kick the door in. I wish there was a hole in my house somewhere for me to hide and no one could see or find me.