forgive me if i say too much right now...because im feeling overwhelmed by my family's negative remarks about me. I AM GOING TO MARRY THE GUY OF THEIR CHOICE!!! so cant they give me a break!!! no matter what my fiance says..(wrng things) ..he's quite demanding!!!my family blames everything on me if things dwindle between me n my family!!!!! im sooooooooo stressed at the moment that im planning to take a day off tomorrow so that it will become a long weekend (sat and sunday) and doze off on sleeping pills overdose!!!! i truuuuuly believe that nobody cares about me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and no matter what my fiance and my family say,im not being NEGATIVE!!!!!!!! they tell me to not act like a psycho...but the fact that they 'think' im being psycho MAKES me angry and miserable instead!

the guy i love..has left me for good because my family is marrying me off to another guy. i want to stay in contact with my love, but he just pushes my away. he wants to end contact with me! well, many of u might think that he;s doing the right thing...but how can someone be sooooo RATIONAL in loving and then leaving someone!!!!!!! i really dont get it!!!!!!!!!! how could he ever have loved me if my absence means nothing to him!!!!!!!!







i dont know what to do. may be i'll sulk n rot n then take overdose......or may be i wont n then get up and get more hurt.......... i dunno.