I can't trust ANYTHING I say/feel anymore, I keep losing track of reality. I convince myself that I can be something, and when I snap out of mania I realise what a fool I'd been. It's so tough, I've always wanted to be an artist and sometimes I really THINK I'm brilliant, and when I get depressed I realise that I'm not good at all, when I feel normal it all becomes confusing because it's two extremes and I lean back and forth from them. It's really starting to upset me, I'm not dealing with it well at all. People around me tell me I'm a gifted but "troubled" person, that only makes matters worse to be honest.