Your passion has become a mundane job for you and boring. As you get older your body can't handle alcohol as well. You need a job to live and pay bills...any way you can come up with new ideas within your business and spark your passion again? Keep plugging your job and look for a new passion hobby. Drinking used to be fun...not anymore....replace it with???? meditation..excercise...martial arts...painting...I dunno...you can figure it out. I hear you.