Dreams are essential, without goals there's no where to go in life besides where the ind takes you...ya know? For years I had no dreams because I didn't care where I ended up, how I got there, and I also feared that I was not worthy enough to accomplish any goal. How you gain an esteem is by accomplishing goals and becoming proud of yourself, then with the esteem your motivated to accomplish even more goals. It's like a cycle, but it has to begin somewhere. Maybe start off small, just in the beginning. Like for my friend Patty for example her ultimate goal is to go to college and to get a degree, but her first goal is to get her liscence. It's always safe to start off small and work your way up. I hope you find whatever goal it is you're seeking. What is it you always wanted in life? There's nothing to small or to grand, there's so many oppurtunities out there for people like you and I. I believe you could do whatever you wanted Davey if you started off in the right area. Good luck....I hope you seek whatever it is you're searching for.