So I have been in this crazy interesting relationship with my ex-husband. I will be the first to admit that it was probably 80% (if not more) my fault for us getting the divorce. Anyway, we have 2 kids, and we have been slowly getting closer again. I think it's great that he is willing to forgive and forget, as I have been able to as well.

He and I are contemplating moving back in together (my roommate moves out in Feb, and I can't afford to live on my own)...obviously if we made that move it would have to be permanent because we are NOT going to put the kids through that again.

I don't know what to think. My heart doesn't go "pitter patter" every time he's around but I definitely got jealous when he was seeing other people (after the divorce, of course). At the same time, I have not had a relationship since we divorced...is it because I want to be with him, or because I don't want to deal with one?

So, I don't even know what to feel. I don't know if I am doing this because I care about him? I do love him, I don't know if I can truly say I am In love with him...or if I am doing this for convenience and familiarity, or because the kids want us back together so badly.

We have a decent relationship now. I am just afraid, maybe of myself? I don't trust easily either.

So, any input is appreciated, don't hold back, I need a reality check, please. What do I do?