I see what your saying. I like to think im in remission with my cutting as well since ive not actually done it now for almost five years but i do still continue to carry the thoughts of wanting to especially when things get rough. Ive actually had thoughts recently which is what made me reopen my past to read my addiction letter as i see my cutting as an addiction. I not only used to cut but would also hit and burn myself as well. Ive got several scars and have had several broken bones as well from my affliction. Anything to cause pain when i needed it was a way of coping before but i like to think im in terms sober from it. In writing the letter i was hoping to be able to visually see that i do still suffer from it and probably always will but i can also be alert and on top as being aware that i can stop myself from where before i felt like i couldnt. Thank you for your response back