Aw purple honey DH sums it up with "bipolar happens". You sound depressed, it will pass, and you'll get back your entrepreneurial drive. The swings are lame, but they happen, even when medicated for me.

Son's gf ... yea ... birth control pills make her fat... and the alternative??? Has she not seen pregnant women lol? (Pregnant women are beautiful but you know what I mean)

I hope you get to feeling better soon. And the trip to LA sounds very fun. You can check it out and see if there's a way to make a move happen. Just plan it out like you're doing. I used to do a lot of just picking up and moving, wasn't usually the best idea in hindsight, I slept in my van a lot, even lived in a schoolbus. Life is strange and doesn't really turn out like we thought, especially with bp.