I agree with the others:

"Once I am more successful I will deserve to be loved."
Love doesn't come from success - it may feel like you have more to give when you are successful, but it's not what makes YOU you.

""who would want this?" And really anyone who either has a false perception of me who I'll disappoint in the end or sees me as I am and has standards that low, making me maybe not want her in return. I mean I wouldn't want me, why would anyone else?"

maybe there are things you're not seeing in yourself. Maybe there are things in you that are likeable, that you just need to allow to grow! What do you want to see in yourself? (not a job, not that kind of thing - but what do you want to be LIKE?) work towards that, and try to treat people the way you'd like to be treated. And in that effort alone I'd say there is something worth loving.

There are people I have loved who do not have great jobs - a job does not define who you are. I know that's not easy, and I've fallen into that trap before - but I do think perception of yourself needs to change, and you'll realize you're not alone.

also, I really get where you're coming from with "everyone else" getting married etc - but there are many more just like you. And not every marriage is a happy one so try to judge by where YOU'RE at rather than where others are.

*sending some hugs*