H.B. Are you serious ? Are you contemplating a baby at 42 ?
Having had 3 children you know what's involved but why start again at your age ?
Shouldn't you be thinking of grand children by now ?

What are you hoping a child now will provide ?
Having stabilised with your meds, as you say, to then ditch them. Is it fair to a child at your age, especially as your not in a stable LT relationship.
Hun, I really hope you're not serious.
Have you thought of maybe doing child minding, temporary fostering ?

How about getting a cat ? (am joking, but hey worth a thought)

I hope you will reconsider Hun, it would be a HUGE thing at your age. Please think of your motives, and pursue other avenues to channel your maternal
feelings.
There are lots of children who need caring for, and looking after, could you volunteer at a local nursery, school or creche ?

Not judging you, such a wise, kindhearted lady that you are, and I read and take your advice in many posts. This is just my p.o.v.

Please think again.