(((earthmamma))) ...
I know from personal experience that nothing leaves a human being so bereft as the wounds inflicted by a mother.
It's bad enough if they simply aren't capable of being loving, nurturing, and/or emotionally available, but when acts of violence and abuse are also commited by a mother against her own child, it's almost too much to overcome.
I wish you the best in your healing process.

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Pfrog!