Bless your heart. I hate to hear of young people feeling so depressed like this. You're too young to have these feelings.

Is it possible for you to get into therapy? Do you have insurance that would cover it? You really DO need therapy. A good psychologist/psychiatrist could help you with your issues, and get you out of this "living hell" that you describe. Therapy has done me a world of good, and there is NO SHAME in going to therapy. Millions of people use therapy ~ and with your depression, you surely need it. If you don't have insurance, talk to your medical doctor. He can help you too.

You're welcome to private message me too at anytime you want/need to talk. I'm on most everyday and I PROMISE to reply! So don't hesitate if you want to talk.

I wish you the very best. Please take good care of yourself, okay? God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee