I tend to write the things down and read them to T. It helps me to make the thoughts coherent and expressable. As for missing T, I saw her late last month and will get to see her near the end of this month. I failed to schedule ahead. I tsometimes tell her that I missed her and she says that she missed me. This reply bugs me because my missing her is worse than her missing me if she even does miss me.
I am anxious to talk to her about the new psychiatrist that I met earlier this month. I have never ever taken a drug for a mental health reason and so it still creeps me out some. I tend to draw her pictures when I don't get to see her. The pictures tend to be about problems etc. My current one is about some of my hobbies and my negative thinking problem. I concur with the above posting . If you can find a way to work on therapy on your own, then it helps you to cope until T comes back.