Hi Lee!

I do agree with you, I do need a new therapist. I am actually on a wait list right now but it could take a few months. And I don't choose the person, they choose me so hopefully I fall on someone good. There is no dbt around here but I had been very lucky because my last therapist(a therapist in another city who I saw when I was fifteen) was really good and had experience with bpd. When he moved to private practice he told me to go to the university to get treatment so I did. But when I went there, the lady told me I could only have a total of 5-6 sessions per year and that they do not do dbt, plus I did not feel comfortable with her. So basically I decided to go downtown and now I am on the wait list. I have tried my best to self help but I do know that I need to see someone really bad but its hard when your broke because your a student and so I am on the wait list. Some people in my last jobs did not just say hurtful things, some became bullies and were mean to me. My last job went better than other jobs that I have had but after I quit I saw two of the girls that I worked with in the street and on both occasions they looked the other way. I felt so hurt and questioned what I did to them because I thought they liked me. But you are right I need to develop a thicker skin, I guess I just thought parents should be more gentle when they know you are sensitive. Do you work? have you been able to keep a job for more than a few months? Please let me know because sometimes I feel out of hope and when I want to go somewhere I get worried for things to go bad again. Thanks for your reply!