Dear T,

I think about u all the time. Always awaiting our next appt. Going thru everything said at the appts. and putting a great deal of importance on everything u say. When the day comes that we have our appt. I feel so happy. Then when I get to ur office, I feel very nervous. Sometimes during the appt. I look at the clock and don't want our session to be over. When the session is over, I feel sad but still ok cuz u are so kind and sweet to me so it holds me over for a while. The rest of the day is spent thinking about everything that was said. I think u are very pretty and I wish I could be pretty too, like u. I like the clothing style u wear. I sometimes try to change my own style a little so I can feel a bit closer to u. The stuff that makes me the happiest (warm & fuzzy inside) is when u & I talk about things not related to therapy, like white pumpkins, parking in Summit, figuring out how to navigate NYC, and things of that sort. I wish I knew where u live, and if u have kids or are married. I don't know why I wonder these things. I wish I could see u 3 times a week, like on a Friday as well, cuz then I'd always have something to look forward to after each session. Thinking about u makes me feel safe. U r the first therapist who seems to "get" me and even tho u know how I am, u r still kind to me.