faith, both you and biiv are on the same wavelenght as me. i use to feel the same as you two. it really does take such a long time to recover from it, but the rewards are endless.

i still am the "provider" of support for those around me, and i never get any of my so called friends call me to see how i am. ive never understood why but i think you hit the target when you said you talk them into believing you dont need support. i think thats my problem now. but then, because i have pc, i am able to provide more for those around me (including PC) and still have those who i can turn to, but they all are on here, i have no one in my everyday life.

i never help someone else to escape my emotions though, i can how and why people do though. it doesnt mean its a bad thing. to be able to help others is a gift i believe. one that is rare to find in this world.

all of this will make you stronger. everything we experience teaches us lessons, we might not see them or understand them initially, but they are there. these lessons in turn make us a great deal stronger and gives us the knowledge to live a healthier, happier life and provide this for those around us we care for.

try not to resent the way you are, you have been blessed with a true gift that you should never abandon or abuse. us here at PC are all similar in that sense, we have all found our way here because we are "wired" the same way, we care about others and are seeking help for ourselves, and it doesnt matter how we help ourselves, as long as it happens. and to be able to help others simultaneously is even better.

well im going to stop writing, i dont feel as though im making much sense. i know what i want to say but it isnt coming out the same. i hope you understand what im saying in this.

take care and remember i am still here for you, and you biiv. please feel free to pm me anytime, i am more than happy to do anything i can to help you recover.

speak soon