I've been off meds more times than I can count and it always ended it trouble. Now I've got a good med combo my life is so much better. I still struggle with the idea of being on meds for my whole life but I stick with it cos I know I'm better off on the meds.
I think you need to work with your pdoc to get the best possible meds combo before you give up on meds. There are lots of options out there and what works for one person doesn't necessarily work for the next.
Good luck with your BP journey and keep posting !!!