SO I decided to turn this life around now it time to work my tail off to be successful and noting will stop me.

I am Turing 30 in October 2013 and feel like i have I've failed in terms of what my potential is. I don't think I've achieved my potential because I haven't worked that hard and I haven't found the right angles.
Anyway I decided to go back to college a 2nd time .My job is OK but it a dead end job and it is nothing I am passion at about doing forever. Retail sucks and I do not like it at all so it was time to do something new. Working night crew for the rest of my life is no fun and there no wear to go in retail.My job just does not pay well like $18 an hour will not feed a family even working full time.

So studying hard is key and good grades on top of that. I still have some core class to take and got a lot of work a head of me. When i am not studying i am working and when i am not a college i am reading and studying all the time. no time for fun and games or dating.
I want to be a nurse practitioner or nurse and if a else fails physical therapy assistant.

I have only be getting 3 to 4 hours of sleep a night with a nap in between .
here is my weekly schedule.

work: sun-fri - 11:30 pm till 8:30 am
class taking two class 10:30am till 1:30pm mon-wed-fri
study mon-wed-fri 2pm till 5pm
study tue - thurs 10 am till 5pm

sleep at 7pm every night and get up at 10:50 pm

week ends i do not work but get up at 6am and study until 10am and eat then go to the library until 6pm and go home to study some more .

Sacrificing sleep to become successful and not dating making time for people , giving up every thing not related to work or studying.
its an exhausting lifestyle , and i always said sleep can go .its not important to me now.

On top of that i never sleep that much as a kid 8 hours of sleep is a dream . Growing up i only get 6 hours of sleep and can wake up and have all this energy.

The desire to feel like i am not a loser drives me. I don't know if that's the healthiest thing—to be motivated by a fear of hating yourself, but it helps.

At the end of the day if a fail I will know i did every thing in my power to get out of poverty and move on to a job that will go some wear .

When you want to succeed, as bad as you want to breath, then you will be successful.