Hello,
I am new here as well but just wanted you to know that you are not alone in this problem. I grew up with sexual abuse from my father for many years... As I got older and had relationships I live with them in my nightmares and daily in my thought he never goes away .. His new wife at the time was just as sick as he was but I did not understand that at the time I really did not understand anything at all at the time I was 9 when it started and 16 when I ran away .... Anyway i just want you to know that with an understanding partner you should be able to hopefully explain it to him and him be ok.. Try not to hide it from him your feelings and your problems.. See if you can find a good therapist to help you if you can.. Good Luck troubled1