Oh my gosh, i am on the verge of tears right now and am just feeling so emotional but for once it's not b/c i'm feeling bad it's because i'm feeling good. i think my depression is gone, outta here, i've won damnit!!!!!!!!! yes, i do have the odd bad moment but they last a couple of hours not a couple of months. and that's life, that's reality, everyone has some adversities. honestly i feel like i've arrived at that place the one where everything makes sense at last and i feel comfortable with my world, my life and most importantly MYSELF! for years (officially diagnosed at 15 now 21 but in reality if i was to analyze when alarm bells started ringing about what was going on inside me, i'd say 8 b/c by that age i was dieting, counting calories and refusing to eat anything with more than a couple of grams of fat and sugar...yeah, i used to have an ED too, overcome those issues when i was 19 tho, that just left the depression to conquer). everytime that horrible illness called depression attacked me i fought back and there were times when i felt like giving up but something deep inside kept me going. and finally it's over - i got out of this depression alive and now i accept the world with open arms and whatever challenges life brings at me. oh gosh, i'm crying now i never thought i'd reach the other side of this and i want to explain how wonderful it feels to be sitting here at 7am writing this, but words fail me. at long last it's gone, i am free to live my life no longer weighted down by depression. i hope u all have a wonderful day