So, it has taken me a few days to write this because I am still feeling stunned and confused. And also I have been trying to make sense of my Pdoc notes which really threw me. I am still very upset about that.

Re boundaries and triggers and family...so my mother called me at work on Friday morning to discuss what is going on with me and HOW MY PARENTS AND BROTHER WANT TO HELP ME FINANCIALLY. WTF?!!

I am now being offered a monthly allowance again. Apparently, my brother must have told them what happened when he yelled at me in whatever words he choose, but my mother told me she was scared (after our last conversation) and they wanted to help. All of them. She was very calm, listened to what I had to say, did not argue with me or invalidate me or judge me at all. She sounded totally human. They also said the family trust and my car payments would be covered.

She was also giving me all sorts of compliments and praise. Since the press release and the news is all over the media now.

Am I someone she can brag about again? Did my brother tell her what happened when he went off on me like usual but this time was spoken to by hr and told his behavior was risking the company and they could be sued big time for what he did (where no one else that reported the behavior and left as a result could be considered a legal threat?)

That I am not stupid and I do have a legal background and wouldnt hesitate to smear the company name and bring them to their knees....(press and all?)

I am sick and tired of being taken advantage of. And wouldnt hesitate to eff them up big time to protect myself? Even if it is my brother's intl company? That I wont be their freekin family silent doormat any longer? Suffering in silence. That they cannot cover and hide their lies this time and his / their behavior could have far reaching implications?

So, now, after suffering deeply for years without them caring one bit, suddenly we are big news and money is being made available to me to keep me quiet? IDK.

I am

I am appreciated and seen for my work and who I am consistently by 50+ people on a daily basis. So is it now, their ugly secret is out? It isnt me?

So, allowance and child-mony is back on the table?

She ended the convo by saying "we are a family" ... huh?

Now that I instituted no contact, my brother spilled the beans on his behavior or fear or whatever...we are "family" again?

I would rather starve and not talk to them than take their money, though? Is there something weird about that? After 35 years of torment, judgment and abuse, my mother is the spokesperson for the family? I dont know what to make of it.

Any input would be enormously appreciated. I am spinning in confusion. You would think I would be relieved too that i might finally have some breathing room again. That it is on the table.