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Old Dec 16, 2012, 11:04 AM
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Originally Posted by costello View Post
Thanks, shattered sanity and OutofTune. I've heard of other benefits of fish oil. I think it's supposed to help with arthritis too? Anything to do with inflammation really. I've noticed an ache in the joints of my hands recently. Maybe it will help with that too.

As for today, I'm still pretty miserable. Not as bad as the last couple of days but definitely not good. I just hate this. Depression makes you turn in on yourself. I noticed I don't want to engage with anyone. And everyone who does make it onto my radar screen just irritates me.

I looked ahead to the rest of the TLC plan.

1. Fish oil/omega 3's.
2. Not ruminating.
3. Exercise.
4. Light.
5. Social contact.
6. Sleep.

I'm pretty good at not ruminating. My sleep's okay as long as I stay with my low carb diet.

I know exercise can have a pretty dramatic impact on my mood, but it's also going to be the hardest one for me to stick with.

I've never tried a light box, but it's the right time of year for darkness to start effecting mood, isn't it?

The social contact thing makes me a bit nervous. I'm not a terribly social person, and in my current mood social contact will probably make me more depressed, not less. Well, I'll take it one step at a time. Maybe by the time I get to the social contact thing, I'll be in a better mood. And maybe Ilardi will have some good suggestions in his book.
These are all great and they were all working for me for months. Then a few weeks ago, they all stopped working. I still take the supplements and antidepressants, force myself to exercise, I sleep, I get social contacts, have a light box, etc. I feel even more helpless when I know that even with doing all these things I am suicidally depressed.

For me, doesn't seem to be anything to add. I told my husband last night that I'm sure this will be my last Christmas. Not being melodramatic, but after 30 long years of chronic depression, can't take the pain anymore. If I knew there were any things on that list I could add then I could have hope -- but this way there is none because nothing to add. Sorry for the bummer post but the pain I'm in now is so intense.
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