Your description is what ive been searching online for, something that mirrors mine. I kept thinking i was feeling catatonic. Body so heavy with a devastation that you almost cant lift your arms. Wanting to do nothing but unable to sit still.
Nothing satisfies and sleep is the only temporary escape. Not want to eat, walk stand, sit still, watch tv, listen to music, NOTHING. not wanting to exist.

i take medication but it doesnt even scratch the surface when a life changing thing happens to trigger this feeling.

magic pills??? is there any???