the struggle continues...thanks guys for being here for me...and Jax I especially want to apologize for my smart ***** response to your legitamate thought...but to get up on the wrong side of the bed would entail going to bed in the first place...lol...which Im sure had alot to do with my feelings...when I feel like the whole world is out to get me I used to internalize my feelings which I still do but with alot less intensity I think...