Hiya Lady,
I feel really sorry for you... I know you state you haven't seen him for a Year... You state you haven't really got out of bed in a year... Who does shopping ? how you able to eat ? who provides your food? I guess you much be finacially secure and able to pay your monthly bills.
Now onto this guy you have been with for 10 years... I could not allow anyone I loved to just give up and stay in bed and to not be able to see them for a year.. I may have missed something about all this.. If so I am sorry.
When I was single and dating ... I was not in a big hurry to introduce them to my daughter She was 7-8 years at the time. When I met someone that I could see it lasting .. then he met my daughter and my family and friends..
You deserve someone that will help you emotionally and be there for you .. whether its good times or bad.
Please seek treatment for your depression..