Hello all. I have not posted here in ages. I have really been struggling a lot recently. I was discharged from residential in September and did day treatment for a few weeks and then moved to IOP. Then I crashed and burned, big time. My team moved me back up to day treatment and I have been having a very hard time doing what my team wants me to do. I am on a very high meal plan because I need to gain weight but I get so overwhelmed and feel like I just can't do it. I feel like I eat so much while I am in day that I need to compensate at home so I restrict. My nutritionist is worried about me and I think I can understand that. She keeps telling me that I really need to get my act together and gain weight because she doesn't want to see me back in the hospital with an NG tube again. I do NOT want that either, but there is just this force that is keeping me from doing what I need to do. I don't know how to break through it. Please... help?