I'm also reading and offering you support from snowy and cold Canada. I can relate to how you're describing your life...what I have done lately is join this forum, join a depression support group in my town, been referred to a community mental health centre by my family physician (which means I can join other groups and see a therapist for free!), changed medications, spoke about my symptoms with three of my closest friends, and started regular relaxation exercises.

I decided I needed to make some major changes because I had a serious breakdown at work and was going to follow through on the suicidal thoughts I had been having. I'm so glad I didn't at this moment.

Please keep us posted,

RJ