I kinda know how you feel i havent been on meds in a long time and it bothers me ive tried non med treatment and no effect and my meds are either too low or too strong so im either zombie or the hulk...........its hard to deal with its even harder to live with but knowing that you arent alone in this can provide even at the least a bit of confort and support......dont feel sorry dont feel sad im fighting to same fight with you even if you dont know me......