I don't suffer fools lightly. I wish I was willing to change this thinking - don't know if I want to. Thank you for helping me put things in perspective. What/who is helpful, what/who is nonsensical or contradictory to its self in my life. I'm ready to put it to its biggest test yet. I can do this.

And, it's only because of you that I can laugh at myself, at my life, and allow you to laugh at me, and with me. You really are a goofball! I'll keep you anyway.

Is there a possibility when one is not in a woe is me stage of life it makes it hard for them to tolerate others in a different state? I liken it to the carnival game where you throw a hard ball at a target, and if you hit it the seated person falls in the water. I feel like I'm the person on the seat, only everyone is missing the target: it's not about me - its about them. It's okay for me to laugh, and smile, to feel good about my life, about me. It's fine with me if they hit me, and I know now, even if they do I can scramble back up. I will remember that when I'm with mom and dad. I'll just laugh and smile all the way through.

I also know that if I can't reach the you within me, the real you are only phone calls, and emails away.

Will see you in the mourn.