I agree with the others. You're not a *****, you're not a bad person. Especially being young, you're learning about yourself and experimenting with most aspects of life. Some will be mistakes, some will be wonderful. Changing isn't easy, but if there's something you don't like about yourself, work on changing it to what you want it to be. I like to be told I'm good-looking (but that happened a lot more when I was young) and get compliments from men, so I get that part of it. Flirting is fun, and just being young has so many perks! Most things are made for young people--makeup in fun colors, clothing that doesn't cover much, glitter, etc. (Note: That doesn't mean I won't still wear something, just because I'm a little older now...I still like glitter! ) Don't beat yourself up. That's one change I highly recommend. If you can break that habit, you're doing yourself major goodness!