(((cookfan)))

I'm so sorry things are so hard. I understand how you're feeling right now. I really do. The worst thing is that when you're feeling depressed is when it's hardest to find the motivation to keep up the wellness practices. All I can do is to encourage you to keep doing the wellness things the best you can. I know that seems like crap advice to you right now. If I were feeling as bad as you, and someone told me that, I'd want to tell them to take a flying leap.

When my son was at a really low point, he asked me, "It's going to get better, isn't it?" I said that it would. And then it would get worse again. And then better. And then worse. We want to believe we can pull ourselves out of the muck and leave it behind us. But it's not that easy. Life doesn't work that way. We can just enjoy the peaks and endure the valleys.

Knowing the valleys aren't forever helps keep us moving through them. Knowing that the peaks aren't forever helps us to savor them even more while they last.

I hope you get through your current valley and find the sun of your next peak.