I can really relate to the church going issue. I was an avid church go'er a few years back. i had such a strong faith and never thought i would be afraid to go to church. i was put on meds last year in feb that at the time caused me to hallicinate. i thought i heard deamons and angels who were fighting over my soul. i suffered through that delision for over 3 months and still today have problems understanding it was the meds that caused it. im afraid of goign to church and being judged as well and the anxiety of believing that deamons will come for me more if i start putting more faith in God. its been a slow process and i have to constantly ask for forgivness as i have obsessivly said bad things such as f God but its my mind still saying it from when i was delusional. i never mean to say those things. i still have to keep believing it was the meds that screwed me up and not that i was possesed like i thought i was. its been over a year and im still afraid to see a pastor or step into a church afraid that I am unworthy of such a great place because i still have irrationally bad thoughts. I would love to go back..just need a way in believing i wont be punished or sent to hell for going to such a wonderful place and using the Lords name in vain while there. If you feel pressured my opinion would be to not go and wait until your ready. There are many other things to do besides going to church to praise God like praying for what your greatful for and reading the Bible. God knows what your going through and will walk with you through every step until you can again walk on your own May you soon find peace. Take care and God Bless