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Originally Posted by Sam2
I know that I have a problem with depression, and have for decades. Part of me says I should seek help, but a couple things stop me. First is the fear of being put on antidepressants. I don't respond well to those medications. I've been given small doses of many of the new ones for their side effect of helping some people's migraines. Even small doses floor me, dropping my blood pressure so low that I'm too weak to get to my feet.
The second is a mixture of a lack of trust, (all my experiences with shrinks were bad), and the fear of opening doors that should stay closed. I'm afraid if one of those doors is opened, i'll either shut down or do something drastic.
Every now and then, I think of trying to find a therapist to help, but fear holds me back.
Sam2
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Hi.
I share your apprehension in regard to medications. I've been put on antipsychotics and antiepileptics and the side-effects have only worsened my state. It feels as though I have a clot in my brain and my eyes keep moving back and forth and my vision is blurred. Not to mention I'm even crazier than before.
We Romanians have a saying: "Nu ma ajuta. Stiu sa gresesc si singur." - Don't help me- I can make mistakes on my own.
It's hard to find a good professional here and the quacks I've seen have only made things worse for me. Now I can't pluck up the courage to talk to my mother about my changing my shrink because we've seen every "professional" in town and it's a small, vicious circle of incompetent psychiatrists I've been having to deal with.
I think the solutions to our issues come from within- we are our own shrinks and a cocktail of mind-muddling drugs is not an option for me anymore.