i don't want to love anymore it hurt i love her and she left because she could not deal with my issues i'm bipolar but she didn't know how to deal with it so she got so frustrated with dealing with it i refused to get help but i love her dearly and she still says she love me but she wants to work on the relationship but then she says idk idk idk when it comes to me asking for another chance i never felt love like this i want to see her i want to hug her and it hurts so effing much i cant take it no more i dont want to love her anymore cause it hurts she is so mad at me because i took so long to get this help it was a 3 year relationship and it took going this far for me to get help but like i can't deal with this it makes me wish for death it makes want it. it makes hate everyone and everything please i can't cope with it anymore......