Hi my friend -- I'm sorry you're feeling so lousy. Depression is awful. Believe me, I know. I've been depressed since I was a little girl, of about 4 or 5. I'm now 63 yrs old! So I've been depressed a long time. I didn't get treatment until I was on my own, at about 23 yrs of age, because my parents were too busy getting drunk.

I think the best thing for you my friend, is to ask your parents to get you a referral for therapy. Your doctor can refer you to a good therapist. Your self-esteem right now is in the pits -- and that doesn't help matters. Being depressed with low self-esteem is really terrible, and you do need therapy to deal with this. So talk to your parents about getting into therapy. Are you still on their insurance? If not, they will have to pay for it since you're not working. So you will have to talk to them about it. Depression CAN be serious. It's an illness and it's recognized by the American Medical Society as such. It's nothing to scoff about. It can become VERY serious in some instances if it's not taken care of. Don't let it go on too long before seeking help.

I wish you the very best. Please let us know how things turn out, ok? I'd really like to know. Take care, and God bless. Hugs, Lee