Also LittleMe, what you have to understand is that when you do struggle like this you "can" learn to slow it down as I mentioned. I went to see my T one day and I was completely strung out and he had me close my eyes and think about a chalk board and write down the number 10 and erase it and he told me calmly to continue down to the number one.

By the time I opened my eyes again I felt much calmer. He explained to me that I had a build up of cortizol in my brain that was sending me messages of "run" and "be alarmed" and "danger". That by doing something calming, like changing my thoughts to the black board exercise, I was telling my brain, "no danger, no need to run" and the cortizol was then absorbed and no longer flooding my brain with the "urge to run and take action".

That is also what I accomplish by going to my room and having quiet, same thing, I take away that sense of urgency and I am quiet and gradually the build up dicipates and I begin to feel normal again.

So, this is what you have to learn to do to help yourself get rid of what you are discribing. And the more you practice it, the better you will gain control over it.

((((Gentle calm hugs))))
Open Eyes