If it makes you feel better, I have a four year college degree, 3 years to get a certificate to teach, a 34,000.00 school loan, a husband who won't sign the divorce papers but insists on living with another woman, two teenagers who are wonderful but ashamed that I am such a looser because I work at a minumum wage job that they do as well. I can barely pay my bills and with my new reputation as a looser, everyone doubts my ability so I am getting no where. I just get doubted day after day. Today I wanted to send a note with my son proving I paid their lunch money this month showing the canceled check from the bank with the schools endorsement on the back and my son was embarrassed. I will have to go down to prove it myself. I can do the right thing but no one trusts me anymore, so what is the use of doing it anyway. Just know we all feel like s***. By the way my extended family and I can't deal with each other as well so we are no longer talking. So sometimes I think that strangers are my only freind and they can be rude some days too.