Thanks. I have been doing a lot of self work since October when everything fell apart. I've been working on my other friendships as well (still needs a lot of work though). Today I saw J for the last time before our 3 week winter break. He gave me a hug goodbye and told me that I've been doing good lately. That's encouraging. He's going to Thailand on holiday and he also told me he'd email me when he arrives to let me know he's alive.

I feel really close to him, closer than any of my other friends, but I don't know if my standards are skewed due to rather isolated upbringing. I just wish I could have been able to take things to the next level :/