First off, Divine, I understand. It's not always easy to face your challenges. Sometimes it takes the worst things to make us really realize how badly we need help. 3 years is nothing compared to how long I fought it for so I'm not going to judge you on that! But that being said, I hope you stick with it now

On the positive side, Leed said "she might just come back!" Thing is, she seems to have emphasized your getting help and it sounds like she genuinely just wants that to happen before recommitting to you. We can't know for sure that she'll wait long enough for you to start getting better, I'm sad to say but the fact that she's said she wants you to get help is a positive sign. Don't take her "idk idk idk" too negatively. She's at her wit's end right now and she is not about to just say "ok I'm back" too easily yet. She wants to see genuine change or at least effort before shes' sure she wants to do that. Thing is, this is probably a wonderful thing for you both individually and as a potential couple. If she gives in too easily, can you see how you might easily be tempted to grow complacent again? I can. It happens. So let it go for now, work on you, if you really love her as much as you say you do, that's the best possible thing you can do to win her back!

*hugs*