Hey Honey, so glad to see you've finally posted (it's DA)

IF this is the case hon, with PTS, then it's something that definatly needs to be treated, don't feel like you don't want to drag them out, holding it in will just make the situation worse for you, as well as not dealing with it. The longer you do not deal with it the harder it will be. I know from first had, even though I roughly didn't even bring up stuff that happened to me with my pschiatrist, i've now realized, that alot of low self esteem, low confidence, fears, nightmares triggers etc were caused by him, so once I dealt with it my PTSD is pretty much gone, I do still get body memories and triggers etc, but I can live with that. I can live with the fact that yes it did happen, and I REGRET that it happened, and just saying that and realizing that I don't have to feel guilt or shame, I don't have to keep living in the past, but I can live with regret. That was the turning point for me. My psychiatrist told me yesturday that I use to be plauged with this, but I've over come it.

I feel empowered.

Usually with PTSD, anxiety, and depression can follow and be part of that as well, it was for me, especially the depression. You are dreaming and remember stuff is because you are ready to start dealing with it. Triggers and flashbacks believe it or not is a part of healing, even though it's really scary, you need to heal yourself, and you haven't let yourself do that... Got to start taking care of you.. then you'll notice the warning signs more cleary about who not to date etc. You will have a better perspective on things, it does get easier when you start therapy.

You know girl what I went through, you saw my posts on Broken Spirits, I wish you could have gotten back on there. I have had some pretty postive posts, and for me to actually say that I don't have PTSD to the point of depression and fear is HUGE for me. I know you can get past this, hang in there honey, I hope you got my email from a week or so ago.

(((((((((Trouble1/TroubleDone)))))))))))

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