Also the thing that i find hard to explain to my any psychiatrist or T is that \. My anxiety symptoms and depression seemed to have come later. BUt the symptoms i described here to you earlier. Were there4 before. I just never really noticed until i found this site. I have low self esteem. I have 0 trust in my abilities what so ever. I could do something 100 percent and find a way to make it not good. Nothing ever pleases me. But when i see the p and t's they just latch onto the anxiety and depression because its right there face. So when i go back and say i am not noticing a difference. They well lets change a med or it has not been long enough blah blah blah. Then when i went to talk to my T you she says lets talk about what bothering. I had some things to talk about but they were about things way in the past that had to do with my mom and dads divorce etc. I went through what i could but then she was like whats bothering you now after like 3 or 4 sessions. I really had no topics to tell her because there was nothing in my life that was sticking out as one big thing bothering. Its more of everything is bothering but nothing is bothering me. How do you explain that. Then i mention the that my mind bounces all over thought to thought to thought. then they ask me what do i think about. I am like i don;t know. It moves so fast time and then i forget what i was thinking about. Then they just say well your not exhibiting the signs. Its almost like the person talking to me needs to know how to draw the stuff out because i am not capable of doing it. aaarrggghh its frustrating just talking about it here.......

I just started a temporary job in a call center. I am not doing bad at the job but its insanity trying to keep track of everything that is being said to me on the phone while typing and not wandering off lol......Most of the time i don;t remember the person's name when i ask for it.

Sorry for being so long winded.