I am just in this state of turmoil now....

I want to get out. I want to wave a magic wand and be free. My credit score is crap, like around the 300-400 range, so I feel we're screwed. I'm terrified we won't be able to find a place that will be okay with my crap credit. My rental payment history is perfect, but my dad never reported it to anyone. I am terrified that they will sabotage our efforts and try to make us homeless. I know she wants to see us freeze to death in our van, kids and all.

We have appointments to see 2 apartments this week. I have re-worked the budget to try to get us out ASAP. I am angry and also very hurt. I just feel the rage in there and I know that it's good I'm not seeing or speaking to them. We want to hold off as long as possible to give our notice, because they haven't given us written notice just verbal.

But I'm really happy I have my husband in all this and I'm not alone and his logic and clear headed thinking will help me stop from being totally explosive and panicked.